How Soon Is Now?
Although we’re still several days away from my actual due date (this Saturday), time has taken on an eerie elastic quality where it feels like it stretches out endlessly before you, but could be just as easily snapped back to a small bit of nothing, like an overextended rubber band that’s reached its limit. She could be here tonight, or she could be here forever from now.
My feelings range from panic to excitement to BIGGER PANIC to OMG I AM SO READY to wait, wait, what was I thinking? to … well, you see the pattern emerging here. I’m all over the place, but mostly, I’m just really excited. Adding to my excitement is the fact that Adam opened up a Twitter account for our kid and since I have nothing to do with it, it’s been hilarious for me to read this vague display of pseudo-anthropomorphism, and … well, sometimes, he can be a funny dude. I think I’ll keep him.
Anyway! Today was Birth Music Day, in which I burned five CDs of songs that are the equivalent of macaroni & cheese for me: pure comfort. Nothing new, too heavy or hip and they must, on some level, be uplifting, which means that some of my favorite songs were left off of the list, but so be it. I mean, clearly some melancholy Decemberists tunes were inappropriate, not to mention Peter Gabriel’s “I Grieve,” which, you know, no one wants to remember giving birth to. It’s even worse than Live’s “Lightning Crashes.” There is enough death in the world — no one should have to deal with it on birth day.
And because I’ve got nothing else going on right now but errands, last-minute prep and fielding phone calls, not to mention not being able to call ANYONE without hearing them get VERY EXCITED, only to find out you have a question about a pasta recipe, you get to see what I’ll be suffering through for MANY HOURS! This, by the way, is Adam’s worst musical nightmare, as he’s just not, um, into these kinds of tunes.
And if you want copies to give birth to when you do, I will gleefully send them to you. After she’s here, that is.
The Birth Playlist That Even I’m A Little Embarrassed About
The Brother Kite: Lay Down Your Burden; Get On, Me
Carbon Leaf: What About Everything?, Toy Soldiers, Changeless
Celine Dion (SHUT UP): A New Day Has Come
Cocteau Twins: Iceblink Luck, Ivo, Lorelei, Heaven or Las Vegas
Dave Matthews Band: Best of What’s Around, Pig
David Gray: Babylon
ELO: Twilight; Yours Truly, 2095; Here is the News; 21st Century Man
Electronic: Getting Away With It
A Fine Frenzy: Lifesize
Frou Frou: Breathe In
Jesca Hoop: Seed of Wonder, Intelligentactile 101, Money, Dreams in the Hollow, Out the Back Door
Kate Nash: Foundations, Mariella, Pumpkin Soup
The Killers: Human, All These Things That I’ve Done, Sam’s Town, Bling (Confession of a King), Read My Mind, Where the White Boys Dance
The Lightning Seeds: The Life of Riley
Lily Allen: Knock ‘Em Out, Nan, You’re a Window Shopper
New Order: Ceremony, Temptation, Everything’s Gone Green, Perfect Kiss
Paul Simon: The Boy in the Bubble, Graceland, I Know What I Know, That Was Your Mother, The Myth of Fingerprints
Peter Gabriel: I Have the Touch, Growing Up, No Way Out, More Than This, Come Talk to Me and yes, Down to Earth (from Wall*E. Shaddup.)
R.E.M.: Nightswimming
Regina Spektor: Better, Hotel Song
Reindeer Section: Grand Parade, Cartwheels, Cold Water, You Are My Joy
Sara Bareilles: Bottle It Up, Love on the Rocks, Fairytale
The Shins: Caring is Creepy, Australia, Phantom Limb
The Smiths: How Soon is Now? The Boy With The Thorn In His Side
Snow Patrol: Post-Punk Progression, An Olive Grove Facing the Sea, Chocolate
And thus ends the musical comfort food-fest. For sweet lord’s sake, when do you think she’ll get here? And can I handle labor? Will I faint? SO MANY QUESTIONS. NO IDEA WHEN THEY WILL BE ANSWERED.
32 comments March 1st, 2009