The Time of Times
March 25th, 2009
Now that I’m on the other side of pregnancy, I can tell you with total fearlessness that being pregnant is my least favorite state of being ever. EVER. I hated it so very much, and though there were a few bright spots like baby kicks and ultrasounds, nothing highlights that hatred like having an actual, real live baby which, sleeplessness and fussiness aside, beats the living PANTS off of gestating.
It is only now that she’s here that I feel remotely capable of becoming pregnant again. Seriously. DID NOT LIKE.
Therefore, I would like to tell any woman who hates being pregnant that she has the absolute right to punch ANYONE in the face who tells her a) to savor this “special time”; b) sleep now, for you’ll NEVER SLEEP AGAIN or b) enjoy XX, YY or ZZ before the baby comes, because it’s all downhill from here. I don’t think anyone who says those things really understands what a miserable pregnancy is like, because I will take a screaming, sleepless, fussy Samantha (and we’ve had her at her textbook worst, see: last night) over the vast majority of pregnancy. I’m absolutely serious.
I didn’t admit it much, but I spent the most of pregnancy being very, very anxious. Anxious that I would hate being a mother, anxious that I wouldn’t bond with her or even LIKE her — I felt surprisingly detached from the whole thing, and it freaked me out immensely. I was excited, sure, but it was always ALWAYS tempered with a healthy dose of terror and anxiety. I cried A LOT. One evening late in my third trimester, Adam was joking with me about something totally benign, and when he turned back to me, I was absolutely bawling and muttering incoherent things like, “YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT THIS IS LIKE. YOU AREN’T GIVING BIRTH AND CHANGING YOUR WHOLE LIFE.”
Of course, this is patently untrue, as his life is as irrevocably changed as mine, but as the primary caregiver and carrier, I felt singularly responsible for the whole thing — never mind that Adam is the best kind of partner, and I’ve never been alone in this, not for one second — and worse, I felt WOEFULLY unprepared.
I cried pretty much every day in pregnancy. Mostly from barfing, but just as often from wild hormonal swings and bald terror. Every day. I don’t even think I realized this until now — I don’t think I realized HOW BAD it was until I came out the other side.
Truthfully, I felt this way up until AND INCLUDING the moment my water broke. I kept thinking, over and over again, “I am not ready. I am not ready. I am not ready.”
I loved her — or at least, the idea of her — in the way that I thought if anything happened to her in there or during childbirth, I would pretty much want to die myself, but I promise you, I wasn’t fully ready until I saw her face. And when I did, I was instantly in love with her. Game over. Done. Sold.
I cried every single day in pregnancy. I have not cried ONCE since she’s been born out of anything but happiness and a desire to eat her like a barbecue chicken. I think we all have parts of this that are impossibly hard, and while this IS hard — in the way that a marathon or a long hike is hard, as my friend Jenny said to me not five minutes ago — I had no idea how easy it would seem compared to pregnancy, for at least I have my head about me.
Dude, you guys, I had no idea how miserable I really was. NO IDEA. And you know what else? It’s not about the baby, as pregnancy lovers like to tell you. It’s not because you’re not ready or won’t love your baby, or aren’t grateful enough. It’s because, in my case, my hormones were so completely fucking tweaked which, combined with my general fear of the unknown, created a horrid, horrid state of being.
I’m hopeful that the next time (and, God willing, there will be), I’ll be able to remember this perspective and realize that the other side is more than worth it, and this this, too, shall pass. And hopefully I’ll feel a lot less guilty about it, and will remember to tell all the people who told me to savor this magical, gooey time that no, really, pregnancy sucks, but babies are AWESOME, and to kindly shut up.
By the way? I’m sleeping better now than I did in pregnancy. Two contiguous hours of actual sleep is more than I EVER got in pregnancy. Sleep now because you’ll never sleep again, MY POSTPARTUM BEHIND, FOLKS. You heard it here first.
Totally worth every second of misery. TOTALLY.
Happy, um, day, whatever it is.
*Badly Drawn Boy
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65 Comments Add your own
1. Teej | March 25th, 2009 at 4:54 pm
Wow. Thanks for that.. that.. anthem! Methinks I’ll star this in my reader for someday when I will need to revisit it.
2. Jamie | March 25th, 2009 at 4:54 pm
MY GOD is that child beautiful.
3. Jess | March 25th, 2009 at 5:03 pm
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. You are always so honest and WE NEED THAT.
4. Deb | March 25th, 2009 at 5:04 pm
So. Pretty.
Seriously.
5. Blythe | March 25th, 2009 at 5:13 pm
AMEN, sister.
I’ve never felt as certifiably crazy on a regular basis as I did when I was pregnant. I remember once calling Jeff in tears, saying “I don’t even know who I AM anymore!”
Hormones can be like poison darts for the tear ducts, I tell you.
6. ellipses | March 25th, 2009 at 5:18 pm
she is just beautiful. makes me crave sweet fat baby cheeks to kiss on. it only gets better & better every day.
7. Jinxy | March 25th, 2009 at 5:29 pm
Sam is just beautiful.
I enjoyed my pregnancy. But I worried the whole time that something might go wrong. It kind of takes the fun out of ot.
Thanks for your honesty.
8. Wabi | March 25th, 2009 at 5:32 pm
Delurking to say amen!. Pregnancy sucked more than the newborn period for me, too. At least when you have a tough day with an infant, you have the ability to hand the kid to someone else while you nap, shower, or go out. Whereas if you want to go water skiing or have a margarita while pregnant, there is simply no holding tank or clock out option available. Pregnancy is just RELENTLESS that way.
Of course someone who have postpartum depression are going to hate the newborn era. But for some of us, the opposite is true.
Go figure.
9. Carla Hinkle | March 25th, 2009 at 5:44 pm
Wow. That sounds spectacularly crappy. Kinda like pregnancy-induced depression, if such a thing exists. I wonder if you could get some mess for it if it happens again? Because seriously, nobody should cry every day.
10. Carla Hinkle | March 25th, 2009 at 5:46 pm
Damn iPhone spell check. I meant MEDS. Though sounds like you did have a mess.
11. Leah | March 25th, 2009 at 6:11 pm
Wow. I had no idea. All I can say is that I’m glad you’re on the other side now and already so in love with your girl that you’d do it all over again (and, god willing, will).
12. Zephra | March 25th, 2009 at 6:21 pm
I have had 4 babies and the last time finished it for me. I was miserable every single day. If my first pregnancy had been like that, there would only be one child. I totally agree with you.
13. Caroline | March 25th, 2009 at 6:24 pm
If I could reach through this screen and hug you, I would. Oh my lands, THANK YOU. I’m in my first trimester and beg for death at least twice a day. I’ve already melted into a puddle of tears today because I can’t take the nausea ANYMORE!
Just know that you’ve made me feel a little less alone in this, and for that I am thankful. This too shall pass…
14. slynnro | March 25th, 2009 at 6:32 pm
This is exactly how I felt when I went gluten free and stopped have a 9 months pregnant belly year round.
15. Christine | March 25th, 2009 at 6:36 pm
I know nothing of pregnancies, being childless…but as a person, that is one hell of a gorgeous baby.
16. christina | March 25th, 2009 at 6:38 pm
I am delighted to hear you say this–because I hated HATED HATED every single fucking minute of being pregnant as well… and hated all the people who mentioned how they glowed and loved pregnancy and felt better pregnant than at any other point in time.
I also had insane hormones.
And feel a thousand times better now that Sprout has arrived.
So. Am totally with you. And Sam is GORGEOUS. And that photo of her in particular is gorgeous.
17. heels | March 25th, 2009 at 6:48 pm
It’s not the sleep I missed or any one particular thing like that. It’s the TIME. I wish I had appreciated the kind of free time that I had before children. That said, I did fuck-all with it, and time spent with my son (and, in July, my daughter) is much better spent. I do sometimes wish that I could run an errand without the endless pre-schooler stalling, though… That would be lovely.
I didn’t mind so much being pregnant the first time. This time, however, I am only 5 1/2 months in and DONE WITH THIS SHIT. Bring on the newborn!
18. jonniker | March 25th, 2009 at 6:49 pm
Heels: But the thing is, when you’re that miserable, you CANNOT enjoy your free time, because you’re too busy feeling like the inside of someone’s ass. So it’s kind of moot, you know?
19. Emma | March 25th, 2009 at 7:28 pm
Squishy baby. One of my favourite BDB songs. Honesty. All good!
20. JudithNYC | March 25th, 2009 at 7:29 pm
First things first: baby Sam is gorgeous!
Second, I am a 100% with you on the pregnancy suckage. The only reason I have two kids is because they are twins.
Finally, I know it’s not really funny that dad slept through all the fussing and crying but I am laughing my head off.
21. Someone Being Me | March 25th, 2009 at 7:38 pm
It took me a solid year to even feel like I could think about going through pregnancy again after having my son. The pregnancy wasn’t pleasant, it wasn’t awful but I felt like I would be pregnant forever. Plus I had a terrible birth experience involving a 7 1/2 week early baby and both of us in the ICU on different floors of the hospital. Then when my son was 18 months old I was ready to get pregnant again and of course I was pregnant the next month. I am now 19 days from my due date and I cannot wait for him to get here. I am so glad that this is my last pregnancy and I never have to do it again. Pfft to those “special” days of pregnancy. This time though I did have a better perspective having done this before so that made me more mentally prepared for the ordeal.
22. Alexa | March 25th, 2009 at 7:47 pm
Yes, yes, yes.
During the very worst pregnancy breakdown I had, I remember sobbing to Scott that I didn’t want the babies–and after years of infertility, you can imagine how out of my MIND I had to be to say that. The crazy-making power of hormones and throwing up over and over every single day cannot be overstated. After that, the newborn period was cake.
Your daughter is so beautiful, and you sound so beautifully happy. I couldn’t be more delighted for you.
23. The New Girl | March 25th, 2009 at 8:02 pm
Oh, I am SO, SO FEELING YOU. I am impressed that you are even ENTERTAINING the idea of another at this point. That MUST be the power of the decent transition with a no-colic baby. It took me SO LONG to get over the trauma of that first pregnancy.
This time is so much better for all of those reasons that you outlined and also because, in addition, I am not MOURNING the absence of the FANTASY GLOWING PREGNANCY like I did the first time. I spent time being SAD that THIS was my pregnancy experience and now? I just know that it will be over and even though it’s SO LONG, I know that when it’s over, I’m going to FORGET that I was ever pregnant. You know what I mean? I remember WEEPING at a commercial that featured a pregnant woman eating her face off while sitting by an open refrigerator door. W E E P I N G.
And you’re right about it being all worth it, even though I STILL don’t feel really connected to the pregnancy or the baby this time around, either. But I know enough and trust that this one will be just as AMAZING to me.
And Sam really, really is purty.
24. The New Girl | March 25th, 2009 at 8:06 pm
I should also add that this time around I have NO HESITATION with regard to announcing to EVERYONE how much I absolutely ABHOR and HATE and DESPISE being pregnant.
There’s just so much more…entitlement and righteousness about it now for some reason.
25. jonniker | March 25th, 2009 at 8:11 pm
TNG: I felt SAD TOO. And GUILTY. GUILTY. Because people made me feel like I wouldn’t want/love my baby because I didn’t want/enjoy being pregnant. When I now know that THEY HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH EACH OTHER. NOTHING.
And the next time, I’m SO telling people to stuff it. Bring on the entitlement and righteousness, FO’ SHO’.
26. Amy K | March 25th, 2009 at 8:38 pm
Hallelujah for post-pregnancy sleep, even if it’s constantly interrupted by screaming hungry baby. You can sleep on your belly! No runs to the bathroom every 10 minutes! No more hip, back, groin, you-name-it aches! Turning from one side to the other is no longer an Olympic event!
And, um, do we have the same baby? Mine nursed 17 times yesterday and kept me up until 6:30am. Hello, growth spurt.
27. Jennifer | March 25th, 2009 at 9:22 pm
You are so right. I hated those just-you-wait people. And also, I thought labor was a breeze compared to the months of morning sickness.
28. Tess | March 25th, 2009 at 9:25 pm
Dude. WORD. WORDY WORD WORD.
I couldn’t STAND being pregnant, which is quite the unpopular opinion, AS YOU KNOW, and while we are on unpopular opinions? Turns out I ALSO like TODDLERS better than BABIES! I know!
29. KT | March 25th, 2009 at 9:35 pm
“a desire to eat her like a barbecue chicken”
HA HA HA HA
30. Swiggy | March 25th, 2009 at 9:37 pm
I hated being pregnant too, which is why it took five years before I decided I could handle it again. After the Chipmunk was born I realized how horrible it really was when the c-section recovery was less painful than passing out in the shower because of lack of oxygen.
BTW – she’s absolutely beautiful!
31. moo | March 25th, 2009 at 11:02 pm
I pink puffy heart you and this whole post.
32. Tara | March 26th, 2009 at 3:47 am
This post is so wonderful and encouraging, despite the fact that I have just started down my pregnancy road. I am so looking forward to the after part, of being a mom, as scared as I am. Thanks for sharing your thoughts – your posts always make me smile.
33. Melissa in TN | March 26th, 2009 at 4:33 am
Take heart each time it is different. I have had 5 pregnancies and sometimes it was great and sometimes not. Always the baby was the best part!!
34. Traci | March 26th, 2009 at 6:48 am
Delurking to say how great it is to read this! I too hated being pregnant, but another unpopular opinion: I LOVED giving birth. I would do it once a month if it didn’t involve being pregnant. I had difficult births, but the intensity, immense love, and relief that pregnancy was over was totally exhilarating to me. I have been told by my friends how crazy I am for thinking this, but that’s okay. I also wisely decided (for me, anyways) to stop with two, because that’s where I draw the line.
35. Michelle | March 26th, 2009 at 7:33 am
While I was pregnant, I swore I would never go through it again. I was sick every single day for seven months. I couldn’t keep anything but carrots and pretzels down for most of it. I had so many close calls of puking while driving. I felt crazy all of the time. But after our little Peanut arrived, none of that seemed so bad and I’m actually willing to do it all over again.
Samantha is gorgeous!
36. A. | March 26th, 2009 at 7:50 am
Thanks for this. Those of us afraid of it all need to hear honesty. And besides birth, pregnancy and raising a child, if the hubby and I ever decide to do this, I’m mostly afraid I’ll kill anyone who thinks they have a right to be ALL UP IN MY BUSINESS.
I appreciate your thoughts so much.
37. -R- | March 26th, 2009 at 8:22 am
I knew your pregnancy was difficult, but I didn’t realize the extent of it. I’m so sorry it was so miserable for you. I didn’t really feel miserable until the first month of my baby’s life. I feel horrible for feeling that way, but not horrible enough that I won’t admit it.
38. Nimble | March 26th, 2009 at 9:46 am
Hormones are the most powerful force in the universe. But it also sounds like you had the serious sleep deprivation during your pregnancy. So you will laugh at baby-induced sleep deprivation. Best wishes, enjoy your family!
39. Sarah | March 26th, 2009 at 10:23 am
I feel like I am surrounded with people who love being pregnant and I HATE it. Or at least, I hated it the last time. The first time wasn’t… heinous. But it sure wasn’t blissful or glowy like I had imagined. I felt trapped inside my own body and like I had had a personality transplant. I remember being OUT OF MY MIND the last few months of Eli’s pregnancy. Like, literally sobbing so hard I thought I was going to puke because I was just so miserable and terrified and NO ONE UNDERSTOOD, NO, NO ONE, AND ESPECIALLY NOT THAT MAN WHO MADE ME PREGNANT.
40. Erica | March 26th, 2009 at 10:33 am
I am so so glad that you are feeling good!! I find it so crazy how DIFFERENT folks are with pregnancy and then when the baby is here. I was SO HAPPY during pregnancy (please feel free to punch me) – never sick, felt happier than I ever have, comfortable with myself, full of love for “Beebers” etc. When she came out…different story. Loved her more than life itself, but I have never been so depressed in my entire life. It was the most miserable i have ever felt. Guilty, tired, sick, horrible, guilty (did I already say that), and sad sad sad. It was awful. It’s only looking back that I realize that I had severe postpartum and really should have taken the drugs that were offered to me but I was terrified of poisoning Liv through my milk, wanted to just feel better on my own, etc. It was absolutely miserable to be so horribly sad, resentful and guilty those first weeks and months and to not be able to truly enjoy and bond with my sweet girl as much as I thought I would/could. God, I still get teared up thinking about it.
Anyway, I am so insanely happy for you (and secretly jealous) that you are able to enjoy these first weeks so much, but that’s not to diminish at all how friggin’ shitty it was for you during the pregnancy. It’s hard to say if I’d rather have had a crappy pregnancy and a happy newborn experience, or the other way around. Maybe there are negatives and positives to both right?
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41. michelle | March 26th, 2009 at 10:44 am
Delurking to say… THANK YOU! I’m due in June and have been terrified. This whole pregnancy thing has remained completely abstract in my brain. I know there is a baby growing in me, and I’m excited for the end result, however, the unknown is killing me slowly and the anxiety of it all nearly drives me over the edge. Reading you has helped me to feel more normal, and for that I say thank you! The pregnancy (my first) hasn’t been horrible, but it has been an exercise in patience, of which I have none, and I ALWAYS THINK THE WORST! So, again, thank you, for being truthful and straight-up. It has helped to alleviate SOME of my fears and I am hopeful for the day that I get to meet my leetle one.
42. Sarah | March 26th, 2009 at 11:42 am
I’m so totally with you on the pregnancy sucking the big one thing. I hated being pregnant. I hated being weighed and measured and invaded and the anxiety and not having my body be my own. Not to mention the nausea. Oh god, the nausea. And the time I barfed so violently that I broke a zilion capillaries in my eyelids and tore my esophagus. NO THANK YOU.
But the baby, oh the baby. My son is the best thing in the entire universe. I hope I can keep perspective on that next time we go through this because it’s so much better once they’re born!
43. Penny | March 26th, 2009 at 11:48 am
I also had a very hard pregnancy – it was very, very painful. I cried a lot, but I also was just PISSED OFF. I was so angry throughout my pregnancy.
This pregnancy has actually gone remarkably better – I seem to be in less pain, and I don’t know whether it’s because I know just HOW bad it’s going to get (the 9th month is impossible), or because my body’s kind of been thrashed and it’s not protesting as much. I don’t know.
All I can say is, I hear ya and I hope your next pregnancy is easier.
44. Danell | March 26th, 2009 at 11:57 am
Add me to the list of those who HATE pregnancy! I was miserable and huge and terrified and insane my entire first pregnancy. I could NOT wrap my head around the fact that there was another little person in there rolling around…I felt horrible that I didn’t LOVE being pregnant, that I didn’t spend hours lovingly rubbing my belly and “bonding”…it just wasn’t real for me despite all of the miserable emotional and physical changes happening. I mean, I knew I would be positively devastated if something had gone wrong but then again that was part of what made me feel so horrible…nothing WAS wrong- I had a perfectly normal pregnancy with no complications and very little morning sickness-SO WHAT RIGHT DID I HAVE TO BE SO MISERABLE?? Guiltguiltguilt. Total misery. Yet, miraculously, I did it again. Except this time I was actually EXPECTING to be miserable, which actually made it more manageable, you know? I don’t really know how to explain that, but there you have it…somehow EXPECTING to be miserable made it better. Less fear of the unknown, I guess. (Which, as a side note, kind of made labor and delivery a little MORE scary the second time around, heh.)
45. Kristin H | March 26th, 2009 at 2:52 pm
I didn’t like being pregnant the first time, but I didn’t have nearly as hard a time as you. I just didn’t like all the symptoms that came with it, and I didn’t like sharing my body. But the second time, it was better. I knew the end would actually come one day, and that the baby would make it all worthwhile. Hopefully it’ll be that way for you too: more tolerable, having been through it and knowing what to expect. Plus, since you’ve been through it people aren’t as in your face with the “just waits”.
Isn’t it amazing how hormones mess with your mind? Seriously. You’d think that after 20-some years of having a period, I would realize what’s happening when I get grouchy/weepy/wacky. But no, Every single month I am surprised by it. Hormones are insidious like that.
46. Julie | March 26th, 2009 at 5:36 pm
You couldn’t have said it any better. I was so frustrated when people would ask me how I liked being pregnant, obviously expecting some glowingly effervescent answer, but all I could say was that I wouldn’t miss it when it was over. Yay for the people who just love being pregnant (and I suspect that number is fewer than those who do say it), but there wasn’t much to relish about it (kicks and ultrasounds aside, as you mention), as far as I can tell. Thanks for putting it out there so clearly, truthfully, and beautifully.
47. Hollylynne | March 26th, 2009 at 7:39 pm
I’m hoping to get myself knocked up pretty soon, so, SERIOUSLY, thanks for that. I’ll go ahead and bookmark it
48. Cecily | March 26th, 2009 at 9:17 pm
Oh, dude, I am SO with you. I hated pregnancy. Fucking HATED it.
No one talks about partum depression. Everyone talks about postpartum, but no one talks about depression during pregnancy. It happens. I had it. It sucked.
So glad you wrote about this!
49. metalia | March 27th, 2009 at 12:10 am
I am a freak who loved being pregnant. You know, even with the incessant barfing, exhaustion, and three (THREEEEE) glucose tests. It’s insane, I know, and when I try to think about WHY, specifically, I so enjoyed it, all I can come up with is, “people gave me their seats on the subway!” But there has to be more to it than that…right? RIGHT?
50. Heather | March 27th, 2009 at 10:37 am
I’m another first-timer who wants to say thank you for this post. I’m 27 weeks and have been pretty miserable/sick/anxious/whatever for about 20 of those weeks. I keep wondering what is wrong with me that I’m finding so little joy in what I assumed would the most joyous 9 months of my life. It’s so nice to hear someone who has come out the other side and is happy — a little hope in the wilderness, if you will.
51. Megan | March 27th, 2009 at 6:06 pm
I am SO incredibly happy you’re having this experience with Sam (who, btw, is positively gorgeous), after the crappy pregnancy. My pregnancy was pretty uneventful, but I can’t say it was enjoyable being pregnant. I was definitely ready for Lila to just get here already. (And I’m getting more sleep now than I was at the end too–knock on wood, I probably just jinxed us both.)
Now that Lila’s finally home with us, I can begin to entertain the thought of going through all of that again…for a while there, it was NOT HAPPENING. But, just one look at their faces, right? All worth it.
52. Mauigirl | March 28th, 2009 at 11:33 am
So nice to hear some real honesty about pregnancy – but with the healthy dose of “it’s worth it” at the end! Adorable.
53. Jessica | March 28th, 2009 at 12:48 pm
BEST POST ON PREGNANCY, EVER.
You know I am RIGHT THERE WITH YOU, SISTER. Holy crap. I sobbed my way through every pregnancy absolutely hating and resenting people who could do this better and easier and with more grace than I could.
I hope you aren’t like me and your next one is better. It happens for some people, really.
54. willikat | March 28th, 2009 at 2:05 pm
I just want to say this was a brave, beautiful post and your honest, realistic view is so helpful.
55. Kristi | March 28th, 2009 at 11:06 pm
I am so enjoying reading about your immersion into motherhood and your wonderful take on things. I suck at being pregnant, and my body HATES every last minute of it, but I did it again one more time because I loved my baby so much. So worth it.
You’re not alone in the Pregnancy Hate department.
56. Becky | March 30th, 2009 at 4:32 pm
I suffered badly from pre-partum depression with my two last kids (my daughter is a couple weeks older than yours) and it was just awful. As sad as I am that I will never have more babies as my last had a neural tube defect, I’m relieved that I will never, ever have to suffer through pregnancy.
Because for me? It was suffering. Every.single.day.
Glad to know that I’m not alone.
57. MIchelle | March 31st, 2009 at 1:47 pm
Hated, Hated, Hated being preg.
BOTH times. Felt detached, awful and did not have the ‘glow.’
Will never understand the ‘good’ parts of being preg; don’t really care too. I have two wonderful kids to show…but the worst 9 mths of my life (hands down!).
I was afraid that not enjoying my preg would equal not enjoying my children – boy was I wrong (and thank god).
Luv my kids – hate being preg. Not a preg superstarrrr – I sucked!
And I am willing to own it and be okay with it.
Glad to see you put it out there as well. BTW she is beautiful!!! have fun!
58. Sarah @ BecomingSarah.com | March 31st, 2009 at 5:46 pm
Those lips! Oh my goodness, those lips are going to do me in! Could she be any cuter?!
59. whoorl | April 3rd, 2009 at 3:52 pm
I’m a little nervous about pregnancy the second time around- the first one was pretty easy and I’m afraid I’m going to get bitch-slapped if/when the time comes again.
In other news, your daughter is DARLING. xo
60. Sam | April 3rd, 2009 at 6:56 pm
I love her name, by the way – being a Sam is awesome.
I was blessed to have a really easy pregnancy, and felt better than I ever have in my life. Seriously. That strange hormonal cocktail is the weirdest thing ever, it’s just so different for every person. That said, once I was through, and had a newborn, the thought of ever being pregnant again was sickening to me. I guess it’s because I did get very uncomfortable at the end, or the thought of giving birth with the experience so fresh on my mind – I just couldn’t FATHOM it. It also didn’t help that I would see pregnant women in the midst of August and I would just thank GOD that I wasn’t pregnant anymore, because it was so damn HOT.
61. TB | April 3rd, 2009 at 8:57 pm
Oh my stars she is lovely. Almost, almost makes me want to do it again. But alas even my own offspring in his most angelic moment could not convince me to do such a thing.
62. Lara | April 6th, 2009 at 11:34 am
Oh, Jonna, she is just gorgeous.
63. Julie Momster | April 9th, 2009 at 7:58 am
A. MEN.
I hated pregnancy with a firey passion myself. I wasn’t horking/spewing/ralphing the whole time, I was just miserable. Scared, and huge, and miserable.
You’re right, though: The second you see that tiny little face, it’s all worth it.
But I still dread going through it again – that is, should I ever decide to let me husband even BEGIN thinking in that direction.
Sorry for rambling, Cranky night-time baby = zombie mama
64. Di | April 18th, 2009 at 1:10 pm
Several things come to mind here:
Thing the first – your girl is gorgeous! I can’t wait until I have another chubberkins around, which brings me to:
Thing the second – Thank you for even mentioning what a drag being pregnant can be…I mean I’m not even 5 months along, and I’m a weeping morass of tears and anger A LOT OF THE TIME. I hate it. I keep thinking it will pass, and I don’t remember this degree of funk the first time around…
Di
65. Olivia | September 23rd, 2009 at 2:57 pm
I’m late to the game, perusing your archives, but I have to say “Me too” on the sleep thing. I was so sleep deprived during pregnancy I was scared to death about how little sleep I would get once my daughter was born. I now get satisfaction out of smugly telling people I am more rested since she was born than before.
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